|"The scars remind us that the past is real."
||[Feb. 25th, 2006|09:46 pm]
Okay like I just posted an entry but I decided to keep this in a different entry because its completely different.
So I was listening to a song and it reminded me of my oldest sister and it was scars by papa roach...its kind of a coincidence that she said its her favourite song, especially since she said that before she got in the car wreck,"The scars remind us that the past is real"....I always wondered if maybe she purposely pulled off into the next lane maybe she didnt want to stay...maybe she was tired of living the way she does.
Like emotional wise//..So yeah last week my mom called me and told me something about my sister, and it made me feel way more depressed..
Its like you think people have finally changed and are finally okay, and then they go and do the same old shit..
Like having faith in someone and then they destroy every chance of hope you felt for them.,,.I hate it, it makes me wonder why I still think people can change, things were going so well and then it was just fucked over in one day.
Some people never learn, and some people just never change their ways.
Is it the obsessive personality, or the lack of attention.
The misplaced feeling of the good old days, when she felt so numb that it seemed like that emotion was normal?
Or does she just like seeing people worry about her, though that feeling got killed the first few years.
Some people just never change.
But yeah, sorry I had to write becuase holding it in just doesnt help.